:: i went away, i can only go beyond ::

well, I'm in this town for a week.

this town with old red brickhouses. and huge business centers. this town of decent weather and quietness.

i like this town. more than i thought i would.

when i landed, the first thing i saw in this country was a plane departing to lisbon taking off.

and my thoughts pointed further beyond. i'm bigger than my body, therefore i'm beyond its location too.

wouldn't it be nice to sit by the duoro? wouldn't it still be heaven, even if the links are broken, to stumble into this world that i craved so hard for?

i never been closer than this to my ideal kind of life. never been closer to canada, portugal, norway.

:: update ::

She's still around. but still tastes like an affair. Still feels like I'll hardly make it through the week. But I struggle. Mr. Charming can seem viable to someone who considers him impossible. It's just that she never met someone like me. Since she still keeps me secret I'll come up with a fake name. Let's call her Julia.

I'm living at a friend's apartment. Sleeping in a sleeping bag on the floor, hand washing my clothes. It's not bad at all.

Gloria sounds sad.

I'm off to a business trip next week.

Maricela is not answering emails. Gonna have to call her next week.

The benz is in good shape. photos soon. while I'm in a huge city I still don't know next week, the 'silver bullet' will be getting some performance upgrades.

I play world of warcraft less often, but I'm good as hell owning most of the other players, I even disregard all other activities in the game.

I haven't seen my cats in about a week and I really feel lonely because of that.

I'm considering to buy a house. It's a good investment even if I leave the country.