Thursday, July 19, 2007
:: Not waiting on my world to change by itself ::
I'm blissful in expectations.
I get wishful so easily. It's been a weakness. And yet, I do it again.
So, what now? I am different now. I am not fueled by the support of a significant other, because there is not a trustful supply of significance and presence from anyone.
But the right words at the right time, from the right person, can still melt me and get me this silly smile stuck all week.
Just a little few words.
On other fields, things are coming out fine. I'm happy with my job, I like where I live. I feel quite free and looks like the effort has been worth.
Topping my list of To-do things I have:
-Spending some time with the person who is making me smile. You know, nothing big, maybe dinner, or coffee. It's been some months, I guess we have stuff to catch up with.
-Getting the A/C of my car working again. Having some electrical issues... But it looks totally sweet:
I get wishful so easily. It's been a weakness. And yet, I do it again.
So, what now? I am different now. I am not fueled by the support of a significant other, because there is not a trustful supply of significance and presence from anyone.
But the right words at the right time, from the right person, can still melt me and get me this silly smile stuck all week.
Just a little few words.
On other fields, things are coming out fine. I'm happy with my job, I like where I live. I feel quite free and looks like the effort has been worth.
Topping my list of To-do things I have:
-Spending some time with the person who is making me smile. You know, nothing big, maybe dinner, or coffee. It's been some months, I guess we have stuff to catch up with.
-Getting the A/C of my car working again. Having some electrical issues... But it looks totally sweet:
Friday, July 13, 2007
:: now, this is a curious feeling ::
Woke up, unwrapped from my gray sheets, yawned and jumped off the bed.
I read a sms. bliss. Sure I'll smile like this all day. Funny how someone, with a few words can change it all, change the colors inside my head.
I don't care how messy job gets today, I don't care about this stubborn teammate that gets offensive just because my job is to give her orders and she is older than me.
I don't care I have to face bureaucracy instead of lunch, changing a water and light contract and asking for a phone and adsl line. And if job seems easy enough to make itself without me, go to two banks.
I don't care. I'm feeling good. I normally feel good, but this is different. I can't explain.
I read a sms. bliss. Sure I'll smile like this all day. Funny how someone, with a few words can change it all, change the colors inside my head.
I don't care how messy job gets today, I don't care about this stubborn teammate that gets offensive just because my job is to give her orders and she is older than me.
I don't care I have to face bureaucracy instead of lunch, changing a water and light contract and asking for a phone and adsl line. And if job seems easy enough to make itself without me, go to two banks.
I don't care. I'm feeling good. I normally feel good, but this is different. I can't explain.